What's with all the commotion all about, seriously. It has come to my awareness that people will get judgemental when everything is going against you, irregardless of the reason behind etc. I don't really bother to entertain these people with shallow mindset. It's pointless to explain when they have condemned you in a way. So I would rather just save my breath and leave it as it is. So yea...peace everyone.




So now, I'm aware who are the ones that will say all the awful and nasty remarks when they have lose their cool. I guess it's never too late to see their real self after these years.

25 Feb:

Internship is officially over. I felt a little sad when i was leaving yesterday. Colleagues were telling me how much they will miss my laughter when i leave the office from on now. :( Another part of me feel happy as well, because i'm like free from my boss like finally. You have no idea how much i have slog for my internship. I have to admit that i have learnt alot from my boss, and it is a good experience to work under him. I believe i still have rooms for improvements when it come to communicating with different people. With my last day of internship at Great World, it means that i'm 1 step closer to graduation. Or maybe i should re-phrase it to.. " i'm 1 step closer to reality".


Throughout my 3 years..i'm really thankful to the people around who has given me the encouragements for me to perservere on. During my suckiest days, when i'm on the verge of going crazy/lose motivation/lose hope, they were always there to encourage me to perservere on to the end. Love my girls and guys. Heart shapes for you peeps! <3

7 Feb:

2 weeks later...im back to great world office for the handover thing. The new interns are damn shitty. I have never met anyone who is so ______ like them ok. They dont listen attentively and made us stay there until 6pm. So it was as good as working for the entire day without being paid. zzz! God bless the bosses. HAHA! I'm officially washing my hands off the company, until Boss gave me my long-awaited testimonial. ^^


Ending this post abruptly as im not happy. No more a happy bean.

Unnecessary Publicity

Look who's on the front page of Strait's Times yesterday! It's my dear audreee!





Heh..audre was tweeting how embarrassing it was, coz the picture was on the front cover of Life section. In case you're wondering, she didnt do anything illegal, the article was about nightlife. :) Heh...even her boss saw her face in the papers yesterday also.

My dear audrebaby, no more MC for you on every wednesday/thursday from now on. heeeee~ If you get MC, your boss will know you're out there partying~

Hairpee CNY!

Happy CNY! My first 4 days of CNY were well spent with the yummy nommy goodies. CNY is boring, it's just another day isnt it? But it was a great time catching up with my favourite cousins once a year. We hardly have the time to have the usual fortnight meet-up at grandma's hse anymore, since they have work/school commitment. :( Reminiscing the good ol' days when we have our frequent sleepover at grandma's hse, just think 9 cousins ( the other 2 are always not with us for sleepover ) sleeping together under 1 small 4 room flat. heee~ Good ol' days..... (Y)


Anyway...does anyone of u have this custom of wearing gold jewelleries at CNY? Because i have this practise in my family since i was young. Since young, it's always the usual gold necklace,ring and bangles ( whatever u call that ). Angeline and i are probably the only girls who are still wearing it, the rest of my girly cousins dont wear it anymore.

Day 1 is always boring since all my dad's side cousins are all guys. It's boring since we're not that close at all. Bah.

Day 2 is awesome with my favourite cousins! We grew up together bathing/sleeping/shitting together. HAHAHA!!

My lovely grandma who doesnt understand chinese except teochew.hee~ She used to give us extra pocket money whenever we went to her house when we were young. We can speak teochew coz we learnt from her when we were young! I love this shot, gonna developed this and display in my room. ^^

Yea..my mommy dearest. my mom looks tall coz she cheated and tip toe. HAHAHA!!! In fact..she is 146cm only. cute height. i know. ^^

My pretty cousin with sharp features. Love her!

Left: my 17 yr old cousin

Middle: my handsome bro
Right: my closest crabby da geeeeee!! and i forgot to take picture with him! :(

My kawaii korean alike looking meimei. She is such a cutie, but she kept saying she look like monsters in all the pictures. -.- And ya..she is 16 years old only. 6 years difference and we can click so well, coz we're equally bimbo. LOL!! My addiction to taiwan/korea shows are all through her reccommendations.

Too chio, must take self-shots. My front camera takes decent shots i guess. I look retarded and fat when im smiling with teeth. When im not smiling, my face and features will look so small and sharp. lols. So i will give this bunny face when i take picture next time. And screw u if you still think i PS myself in these 2 photos..coz i didnt. While i was editting my pictures, i make everyone look slimmer and enhance their features. My brother came in and ask me to make him look fatter. I literally roll my eyes at him. ZZZ!

Happy CNY!! May everyone "dua huat" this year. My dad has already won like 1.3k this cny gambling. -.-

Blast from the past

Heh..back for another update! My stay at Lilly is gonna make me a fat kid, there are always so much events going on. Heee~ Last week, we had a 3 days NSC going on at Swisstel Merchant Court. Before the meeting was started, we had a hearty and full breakfast, followed by an international buffet after the meeting has ended. The main course can never tempt me enough, i will always go for the appeitizer ( salads etc ) and dessert only. lols!!

The dinner on a "Swinging 60s Friday night":

Love this starter: Prosciutto Parma Ham with Rock Melon in vinegarette dressing. the ham is well marinated and taste yummmmy!

This is the second dish of the day. It looks like some pumpkin/carrot soup, but it is not. This is Prawn Bisque with roasted garlic crabmeat. I dont like this, it has a fishy smell.

Third dish of the night: Pepper Chicken. It was said to be the most recommended dish. However, it doesn't appeal to me at all, as the chicken is not tender enough.

*DRUMROOOOOL* Dessert for the night: Classical chocolate!!! MY FAVOURITE!! As you can see la..my eyes really sparkles and i ate it right after it was served, and i forgot to snap a peekture of it, thus the messy peekture. :P

A group shot with the fellow sales team colleagues to end the groovey 60s night. And everyone is happy coz' we're going home with Takashimaya vouchers! :D

Saturday: Team Building at Mt Emily Park!

I enjoyed the team building session playing real life counter strike at Mt Emily Park. I really have fun, minus the fact that we have to carry those heavy laser guns and run all over the place without being attacked by the other opponents. Of course...we are the winning team! Diana and i are prolly the only girls in the company that play virtual counter strike game only. HAHA! Even our NSM was shocked when he heard that. LOL!

My fellow counter strikers, led by our National Sales Manager (the guy). haha!! Picture was taken at Rendezvous Hotel for international buffet after the Team Building session. Winning team is going back home with vouchers! (Y)

PS: i'm really amazed at those sales rep, they can play games with full make-up on. It will confirm clog their pores when they sweat lor. I've only my fake lashes on and brows drawn only, no eyeliner at all. I need fake lashes la, else my eyes will look so small. :(

The sales office peeps are really FUN! Unlike our IT department, forever boring and dull. I'm missing the sales team at the 8th storey already! This is the 3rd day since we have shifted up to the 9th storey. :(

Coming week will be the 8th week of my IPP. There are so much work to be done, yet there is not much time left. Save me pls! :(

Hairpeee twenty eleven

Coming Monday will be my fifth week at attachment! Time really fliessss! I'm actually enjoying every minute and second of my attachment, minus the communication part with my indian colleagues. heee~ I always ended up giggling when i am in the conference call with them, due to communication problem. hahahas!

Outfit on a dress down friday. Totally love the boyfriend style blazer together with the floral brooch.

Last week was FAB! Had a class gathering with the classmates after so long. the gathering was great, was nice to catch up with them a little. Not forgetting hairi and eugene!!! Didnt see them for the longest!!! ( say...4 mths!!! ) They made the bestest friends during study semester!! And we are the FANTASTIC 4! HAHAAHS!

Group shot of the class peeeps! (Y)

And the last day of 2010, i went to marina barrage with the polymates for the countdown. My initial plan was to head to vissss house at yishun, however, my lazy bug got into me and i rejected to go over to her side. Turns out, i'm still heading to that area in the end. :x. Sorry my dear!!! I think i should just migrate to North area, then i can just chill with them anytime i want. heee~ Everyone headed to minhun's house for sleepover after the countdown, as it was already 2am and i dont dare to walk home alone!! Bunbun is sucha cutie! She was holding my arms when she was sleeping/ kick the blacket away halfway through the night/kicked me aside in the middle of the night. lols!! Her sleeping pattern is so cute yet dangerous at the same time! :P I've to keep pulling her back to bed constantly, fearing that she will fall off the bed ok. If she fell, the guys who are sleeping on the ground, will prolly get a shock. lols!!

Ya'right, i'm the fattest of all, since everyone is hiding behind me. -.-Dont have to remind me constantly. hahahas!

Before i end my post, here's my 2011 resolutions :

- Good health and smooth life ahead

- spend lesser and save more!

- able to get into my desire career.

Have a happy 2011 ahead peeeps. xoxo~

Millions of misses

It has been a week plus since my IPP has started / FYP has ended. To be honest, i really miss FYP the most. :C FYP period and Study Semester are the best moment ever in my school life. (Y) So gonna missed everyone when we graduate next year. :C

Back to work....it's only the first week, and i starting to feel so lost. Mr Tham was really right about spotting my weakness. :C I hope i could change for the better after going through this IPP experience. Gonna 加油！:)

Totally love my eye make-up of the day, it gives a subtle hint of sexiness without looking overly slutty. I was inspired from Michelle Phan's awesome vids, and of cos, the signature Maybelline look. And yeah, this is the outcome of spending 2 hours infront of the mirror. I'm totally a sucker for high nose bridge. Since i dont have one / have no money to do plastic surgery, i've no choice but to spend time contouring my nose. lols.

Obviously..this is a epic failure pose. Just ignore my hair and expression. Just look at my awesome outcome of my eye make-up ok.

Time flies! This coming week will be Week 10 of FYPJ babey! 2 more weeks to goooo~ So gonna miss my 2 crazy partners after our FYP ends. :C And....my number 1 eyecandy!! Believe it or not, i only found him looking super hot at week 7 suddenly. ( because he looks hot with his spects, while the rest dont agree with me ) Since week 1, all the girls ( yes..i mean ALL! ) were going gaga over him okay, and at that time i felt that he looks normal only. And now, i admit that i'm one of the many girls in FYPJ going gaga over him already. *blush* Most exaggerating thing is...i dreamt of him at night. I know it's super "kuazhang", maybe i saw him too many times on that particular day. LOL!


I'm always hesistant to post pictures of myself/gfs/family online. Because there will always be people out there pinpointing the flaws as if they were awesomely perfect and hot. Oh well.. i will just post 1 of the many peektures from grandma's birthday 2 weeks back.


My handsome brother and sweeet-looking meimei. ( we have high cheekbones! I realise all my girly cousins, from my mom's side have high cheekbones too.) My brother's DSLR capture really chio peeeeektures. *thumbs up* Heh...hopefully he can be around to take peeektures for me when i graduate next year.


If you realise, my update here is getting lesser. Because I've been tweeeeeeeting more these days. Another tiny space for me to rant as facebook is really not a good space for me to post random rantings. Nightssss loveliess! xoxo~

Cheap & Chic

Backdated entry : 2 weeks ago.


I havent been to Bugis Village for the longest and I'm so proud of myself as i have manage to get tank dress ($10), cropped shirt($10) and 1 cute loafer ($26) at BV! Bugis Village is gonna be my favourite cheap and chic thrill shopping hunt besides the usual www world. If not for the shopping ban, i would have continue buying even more!! Audrebaby totally went crazy with maxis, and she is tempting me how "vivi" it is etc. I'm regretting that i didnt get it earlier on, i shall get it next time round and rock it out at SIT. Whoever say i look ugly in it, will grow tons of pimples on their faces. >;P


Then sinned at Sephora with Audrebaby. She went crazy with makeups while i went to look for cheap and chic buys again! hahah! Soap and Glory products are my current new love! The scent is heavenly nice and the packaging is so "Benefit" ! But....Audrebaby said otherwise. :( Trust me, the scent is really naissssse lor!!

More info at http://www.soapandglory.com/




Left-body wash @ $13 Middle -Body lotion @ $16 Right- Hand cream @ $13.



That's why i always say, it totally sucksss to be a girl, especially vain girls like us. We worked and spent hard at the same time. HAHAHA!!

Time flies, this is the third week of FYP. I have to rush my work out as we have to present our stuff to the SHS by week 6. Seriously..the workload is piling up, yet time is so short.


Some say FYP are so fun and exciting, to me, it's just normal lor. My batch is hopelessly hopeless. So many hamsums and pweeetys until i dont feel like seeing at all. Ok...there are actually a handful ok-looking guys which some girls totally went crazy for them. But...to me, they're just average. Talking about getting to know others, I'm an introvert, it's just me. I'm totally crazy with people who i know / comfortable with. And to those who i dont really know well, i dont really go around saying hi to everyone etc. Unless they approach me, i've no excuses to turn them away yeah. :)


I have millions of thoughts to pen down here, but i've no idea where/how should i start. Till then the next update..

Zirca babey~

Went Zirca with Marilyn and Jeannie for an event~ Finally meeting up after so longg! We should go club together in future! heee~ As usual I look so awfully terrible beside the 2 lovely babess in the pictures. Sigh. I should just crash diet and lose weight. :(

* many thanks to jeannie huh, for capturing our kiasu epic faces. HAHAHA! check out my dear marilyn curls. sexayyyy~ she is pyscho-ing me to perm my hair la..

After that.. went shopping with bff Rayray~ ( haha! gonna give him an ah gua name now ) I'm ditching my dresses and go for feminine chic look to compromise him for once. lols. My mom commented i look like a boy when she saw me in this outfit. -____- Before some of you start attacking me, i admit i look fat with unsightly tummy and all. In short, i'm a humongous hippopopo. I''m not perfect, and so are you. Anyway..Zara and Mango has really FAB lighting, and i was 自恋-ing inside for god-knows-how-long. haha.

Outfit for the day: Jeans from Mango, bag from asos, outerwear from BC, wristband from agnes b.

Bought the denim jeggings from Zara,the fitting is awesome! Didnt get the oversize tee as i could get something like this easily on Gmarket. The top was tagged size L and it was damn loose and huge if i didnt tie a knot. Rayray was saying i'm sibei niao as it is $16.90 only. lols!! Judging from the pictures..i think i look so chio and chic in this style. heheee~ And I spotted a pair of 4.5 inches of heels from Zara too, the nude colour and height are totally awesome! I feel like a supermodel after wearing it. Unfortunately it doesnt have my size anymore! :(

Happy days are over.....gonna mug like a nerd coming monday onwards. :(

It's really sad to hear/read about awful things girls can come up with about each other. Are they being mean or judgemental?

wake me up when september ends~

Pweeeenseentationn is so over babeyyyy~ Millions of thanks to my awesome classmates, they have really help me alot throughout the project. Seriously, i've no common sense + logic when it comes to project. -.- This study semester really passed very fast. :( My awesome classmates are making me looking forward to school daily lor. :) Plus all the lecturers are so awesomely niceeeee ( at the same time, all have this pitiful faces too ) . I feel so guilty as i only turn up less than 5 times for Info Security lectures throughout this semester.


Did i mention how much i like Mr Edwin ( e-comm lec and tutor ), Miss Leow ZhenZhen ( mobile tutor ) and Mr Ng ( info security tutor ) lessons ? We're probably the most active in these classes all the time. For Miss Leow, she is probably the nicest one who will point out my mistakes during Practical test. Or rather, i always raise up my hands shamelessly and beg for help. :x Being thick-skin is good, rather then i fail the practical test isnt it? :) Everyone should know i seriously sucks at hands-on programming. :( Mr Ng is another nice tutor, throughout my 3 years, he is the first tutor that printed the tutorial answers for us. :D And Mr Edwin..he is like a father to us. So fatherly. :D Not forgetting Miss Yeo's Comm Skill lesson.I love her lesson as it is always role plays and interviews. Role play is seriously no kick to me, and i've aces for all these role plays. I should consider joining Mediacorp after graduation and win best actress award yearly. :D




Nonsense aside....

I'm not looking forward to September...coz' i'll be separated from my awesome classmates again. :( :( So gonna miss everyone's nonsense. I dont want to die alone in f-waii-pipi. :(

For now..I've no feeeeeel to kickstart my revision now. I shall really start eating books next week onwards. My mid-term results seriously sucks ttm, and i need to really score well for my examssss! :( For now.....it's online shopping at ASOS and GMARKET KOREA ! hahaa~ :P

hairpeeee burpsday~

Lovelies...thanks for all the wishes from sms, fb and calls. Really appreciate all the kind little gestures from you all. Love you people! :D My 21st is just a simple affair, nothing fancy or happening. But still i'm glad that my close friends and family are able to share this special occassion with me. Special thanks to the girls for the dinner treats, and fat angbaos from the relatives and family. *smoochesss~*


Got a unknown call from someone leh, none other than Mr R. What an ass..change number also never update me!! I thought it was some secret admirer of mine who calls me lor. Make me happy like a happy kid only. *thumbs down* lol


School is awesome, but not the workload. Today is the last day that i will see eyecandy jason already. :( :( I was still grumbling when he has not appeared in class lor. Exciting part was...he was sitting 3 seats away from me. He was so sweeeeeeet and cute to offer sweets to Mr Edwin lor. :P For the whole 1 hour, i kept telling mc how sweet he is etc. hahaha! In fact, i think it's an exposed secret that everyone in my class know already. Oh well... Andandand, eyecandy from fypj is totally cute too! hehee~ An eyecandy a day, keep my monday blues away. (Y)


I'm outta here~ To conclude, BTCS project seriously suckss. *thumbs down* Ah..i must be more refined as said by my classmate. lol. He cannot believe his ears when he heard the "shit" word coming out from my mouth the other time. -.-


PS: I know visss will say i'm digusting again, if she sees this post up. lol.

Love is indeee air

The word "Love" is incredible. It can make you do all the silly things in order to gain attention from the other party. And speaking of that, i really did something "stunt-ing" in class last week. That moment was damn embarrassing. Geez, how am i going to face him in class? :S He is a stylish cool dude ( though he is super low-profile, maybe partly he is from the 07 batch) , and is totally my cup of tea and coffee. heee~ i'm going to add him at fb...not. As usual, i tend to be super jittery man. :S howhowhow?

I didnt know it's damn difficult to start a coversation with someone. The jittery feeling , butterflies in my stomach, getting cold feet and wanted to chicken out whenever i have type out a chunk of words. In short, it totally sucks. Age is really catching up and i've become too reserved. :( It's really nice to hear those words from him after speaking to him. I really couldnt help but to sink in deeper again. Contradicting isnt it? I just dont practise what i've said before. It totally suckssss~






At least i tried breaking the ice again. :)

i don’t know how all these eventually going to help me, but for now i will keep up the faith.

I'm out of here. xoxo~

Grown up

Oh well..i'm still posting it up despite the fact that i look horrid in this picture. ( my eyes just cant take flash! :( ) First was yanxin, second is hector, and the upcoming one will be shiqi's 21st! Time really flies and we've all grown up..

On a side note..I believe things will be much simpler if we stop complicating them. If everything could just be as simple as we can thought of ...

Time flies..

Somehow, i wish i will never grow up. When i was young, i was yearning to grow up faster. And now, i wish time will just stopped for good. To sum up, i dont know what is my future going to be like. Seriously, I'm really ashamed of myself when i got to know how much effort these china students strive hard in order to get a place in one of the polytechnics/ universities in Singapore. For them, they strive to get good gpas to get into local university and get a highly-paid job. On the other hand, i'll be thankful enough if i passed all my modules with average results. Am i being too easily contented with what i have? :(



Even my study clique ( back then ) in clementi town primary are in local universities now. But look at me, i'm still stuck at poly with a course which i'm totally weak in. sigh.. I shouldn't dwell on it too much, else i'll be even upset isnt it? Life still moves on. :) Goodnight world. :)

A sec school friend of mine never fails to entertain me with lots of foreign things. ( at least to me ) 50% of the time, i barely know what he is trying to convey to me. And he has to put everything in simpler terms, just for my sake.

*Click to view larger image*

Those descriptions are too chim for me! If he didnt mentioned it was drugs that he was talking about, i wouldnt know it when he showed a chunk of words to me. The mushroom drug is interesting though. Everything turns out beautiful once consumed. Even the flies around that person were seen as ping pong balls instead. I dont know if all these are true or he is lying to me (since he knows that i have been pretty stress preparing for my exams lately. ) :/

Let's hope that this future ntu science student ( wanna-be ) will not turn this world upside down- with his weird inventions/researches etc . :x

Festive season~

It's always pressurizing to go house visiting on the first day. Everyone is asking me what's my next big plan after graduation. At this moment, i really wish i wont grow up at all. Maybe it's time i give a little thought about it.


cny day 1 outfit!

tell me, which part of the dress spells sexy or revealing? There must be some problems with those ol' folks' eyes.tsk! But.. i totally love the bling bling bangle i've gotten. ♥ ray mentioned that i looked like i'm so ready to go clubbing in this outfit. =______= i dont club as much as him lor..mine is countable while his is UNCOUNTABLE. :/



CNY is getting boring~ At least there are people who agree with me. However, it's a great time for us to sit down and catch up with one another. :) 2 more housevisitings over the weekends before exams starts! Say yay to blackjacks , not .

February is the month of ♥

Presentation is over babeyyy! I'm thankful that my groupmates are always there for one another. loves it! :) Another semester is going to be over soon. 2 more semesters to go before i will graduate officially. Time flies....

Anyway...


I'm finally done with my shopping and spring cleaning! CNY is just 2 days away from now, and i've no cny feel anyway. I dont really gamble these years, it's boring. The only thing that excites me is dressing up! :D Maybe i will be super grouchy for the next few days, because "the-day-of-the month" has paid me a visit today. :(

love the corset i've gotten! (which is a backup, in case i've more house visitings ) Those naggy old folks are going to skin me alive if i'm wearing to their house. Bah....dont have to remind me how fat i'm now.thank you. because i think i will grow even fatter after cny. :(

Nevertheless, enjoy the festive season, everyone! :)

February is the month of ♥

Can you just fucking give me some peace? You wouldnt know the amount of frustrations and anger i have endured. Dont push me any further, you should know the consequences by now, judging by my temper.




No worries, i'm still going strong and clear-headed , i need to be in fact. Maybe i should just chill. I'm just fucking tired of dealing with such shits. Fuck it.

The irony of everything..... Everything is just so contradicting............







If only everything could be rewind back..

I think guys have their PMS/moodswing etc. They can be super nice and sweet, but they can ignore you like mad as well. No thanks to you for making me feel so affected by it. :(

Goodnight world. :(

I need a break from my vb notes. i'm actually scrubbing my fishville tank to destress now. i dont know how to study for my sweng when i've no idea what is going on. sigh.... maybe i should just suck thumb and cry now. :(

Raymond really can make me LOL in the middle of the night la. Given that he is very concious of his image one, he actually did "DA LANG" dance in the public. I think i'm going to replay over and over again when i need to destress later.HAHAHA!! :P


Anyway...i'm giving up my sweng and heading to bed now. Good night world! :)

This week totally sukballz. It's just my luck to bump into such unreasonable people lor.
>:( Secondly, i'm really struggling with my project stuff. I'm just like hanging helplessly out of nowhere now. Sigh, can someone just save me nownownow ? :( i'll really love you manymanymany. :(



Saw my girly visss when i was on the way to school. As usual, she always have stunts one la. Made me laugh like crazy at her "stunt- ning" action. :P


i really fell in love with this after Shina has shown me. The design and all are plain, but the jewel handle is really ♥ ♥ Shina is really a huge collector of miumiu bags. Really an envy la! :(

Received 2 parcels in the mail today. Mom said : " are these your cny clothes or clothes that you will be wearing now ? " Needless to say, it's the latter one. Mom says my brother and i seem to have cny every week, because we have at least 2 new clothes every week. =____= So yea..i'm officially broke. When is my pay rollin' into my account? :(






Anyway, i just started watching "You're Beautiful". Oh god.....these guys are totally mesmerizing. Especially the tall skinny one, i totally love him in strong shoulder outfit! I've noticed that he has been wearing structured padded clothes in the first few episodes. Not many guys can rock out as well as him. :D Maybe i should marry to a korean in future.lol.

Bah...i'm like super bored now. Wanted to login Facebook, but it's loading at a super slow speed like a snail crawls to the other end of singapore. I have so much thing to do at FB lor... i need to feed my cute little fishes, scrub the fishtank and .......... Just by looking, it can make me smile even at my bad days. :P



oh wait, i think i can login to fb successfully! But it's still loading as slow as a snail. in the mean time, i'm back to msn to chat with rayray..raymond! :D It's like super long since i last talked to him. Say...a month plus? :( He is still at his usual self, forever making me cringe with his honeyed words. Really can die when my closest guy friend is such person and is a hum sup gui in nature as well. =_________= Can i like pour bleach into his brain like.... NOW! :P

Seriously...are all the guys born to break every girls' paperheart? It's really heartbreaking to know what Apple has gone through all these shitty obstacles after marriage + giving birth. I'm sure she will be much much happier in her singlehood. For she is a strong lady. :)








PS: And yes...the Queen is back. Say yes to the non-stop partying ,shopping etc !! :D sandra, christy and i will support you forever! Best best working colleagues turned friends. ♥ ♥

Sometimes, I wonder why people are so deluded.
They're not perfect, but yet they are passing sarcasm remarks on others.





Brain is shutting down, goodnight world! :)




PS : thanks to you-know-who, because he has really been nice to listen to my craps all these while. :) :) :) i promise i will be less whiny..and be more tolerant. :)

Typing a sucky emotional entry at this hour isnt cool at all. I wasnt in my usual self lately, with all the shits going on a never-ending basis. Met up with Mr R ( like after zillion years ) after my class to chill a little before heading home. Thanks for listening to my craps and shits. Sorry dude, girls are just forever troublesome. :( Seriously, i just need to get everything out of my head, cuz i would just breakdown anytime if i continue to keep everything to myself. If you think i love keeping everything to myself, and you're wrong. Personally, i just find it difficult to express myself infront of friends. Yes, even the close ones around me. I've been through all sorts of shits, and yes, once bitten, twice shy. Who knows someone could just stab you right at the back the moment you turn your back. It's just effing scary when i think of that. That's why i'm always envy his group of friends. Their friendship are still going strong - 8 years+ and counting on.



If you ask, am i sad about this entire issue? Of course i'm. Who wouldn't get affected over such issues anyway. Not only that, i'm just utterly dissappointed. Period. :( Let's hope after today, it will be a better one ahead. Perhaps ignorance will be a bliss.

It has been awhile since the last update eh! Anyway, i was just back from the clinic with a bagful of medicine. Didn't know my sinus has lead to a humongous ( my close ones never failed to laugh at me whenever i use this word. it's just a slang to refer to huge anyway ) health problems for me. :( Not to mention, i've to avoid certain food too :( Well, health is much important than anything else, agree? :)




Digress a lil'...


At times, it makes me wonder, does one's effort and 诚意 ( sincerity ) change the impression of the other party over time? I'm not talking about days or months , but years . At this era, i believe such devoted guys dont exist anymore lor. Majority are the shitty ones. bah! Guess Caihua is right about people of this horoscope. :) I guess such things just takes time. Who knows one day, i might end up with an unexpected party. :x Hmm..such things are unpredictable anyway. haha!

PS: Caihua, are you convinced that good-looking couples actually exist now? :) She kept debating that most of the time that one will be below average, the other will be the good-looking one. how true is this? I've never seen such cases at the moment though. hmm..



Have a lovely weekend before the dreadful Monday is here again!!! ;(

Audre baby is right about it from the start.







i'm out of this space...

I eat back my words alright? I'm back to blogger again. I'm not comfortable with OnSugar site at all. Anyway..i think results are out already. Dont bother asking me, cuz i've yet to login and see my result. Or rather..no courage to see at all. So yea, shall leave it as it is. Anyway..congrats to my friends- Xuexun has gotten as high as GPA 3.8++, and Kelly has gotten 3.5 too! Why dont i have such high GPA when i was in year 1? Sigh...




Work was horrid these days.. Other than that, i'm glad that time passed real fast with the company of my lovely colleagues. And..my online shopping kakis never failed to tempt me with those lovely lovely clothes online. Okay..i've hell lots of impulse buys these days. ( i've totally busted my shopping budget for this month already. =( ) At times like this, i would sell them off right after it arrives in the mail. My money is depleting already.. and i need to work extra hard and maintain my cool irregardless how fucked up annoying those customers are. That's aside...




Back to the main topic..


Straw hats are really love alright! :D Look how cute dar looks with my brother's newly bought Topman straw hat! I shall borrow from my brother next time. hehee~ I think i'll look hot with it. *self-praise = no praise *


She really can rock out this jap look lo ~


When i took this picture, it reminds me when she was around 16 month old.

This was my dar when she was around 16 months old. Seee...so vain uh~ I think she's born with it lo..

Before i forgot...Happy Birthday Lily 姐! :D Alright..i'm back to Gossip Girls Season 3. Welcome back Upper East Siders! xoxo~

Geez...my skin turns 1 shade darker for the 101 times. Now..the million dollar question : how on earth did i get tanned by standing under normal lightning? It's damn ugly to have uneven skintone on my arms. Give me a suntan anytime.


On a side note, i'm surprised to hear that Mr R is in IT industry now. Poor boy, heard that it's a very stressful environment lor. =/ It just freak me out alot. :( I just cant imagine his serious side of him when he is in his work place though. :P




Time check-2am, and i'm typing this with 3/4 of my eyes closed. And the best damn thing is.. i could see Mr R laughing at my emotionless expression over at his side now!!( via webcam ) sickeninggg~

Another dreadful week with just another pathetic update. Anyway,i'm ditching blogger for good ( in case i'm not used to the new site, i shall eat back my words and come back here. ) I wont delete my blog away i guess..there are way too many memories and pictures of the past here, all the way backdated in 2003!

It's time to put a full stop to this entire drama..... Perhaps this is the last time i'm hearing this from you. i'll keep walking straight this time round..no u-turn anymore. Trust me :)

this.love

Blogger is so cranky recently! If the problem still persist, i do a blog hop. =D In fact i've already made a blog shift to another space :) I'm bad with Xanga and livejournal, so these 2 choices are out for me. The new site name sounds cuteeee, but it is not user friendly at all. :( howhowhow?







Alrights,i'm out of this space. :)

My Saturday night was spent on talking random things with classmate. His usual craps are enough to make my toes laugh already. hahaha! And...webcamming with Mr R after so longggggg...he always say he miss me, which is bullshit, cuz he says this to all girls as well.haha!





Alrights..i'm going out for movie and shopping! ♥ ♥ Till then~

Perhaps i should really just

step out of my comfort zone....

I was entertained by 2 random stupid kids while riding on the escalator.



2 stupid kids : eh, u see the girl standing behind u ( refering to me ) . Dress until like that,confirm is poly year 1 student one. Never dye hair ( check! ) , wear t-shirt and shorts ( check! check! ).





See la, 2 stupid young kids commented that i'm those typical year 1 student leh. On the other hand, what bird logic is this? Never dye hair + wear t-shirt = years 1 meh? Might as well say i'm typical secondary school girl better. I think i need to look more presentable when i out at neighbourhood area in future? Cuz i think i look like a maid ( just think t-shirt+short,then sometimes bun up all my hair ) , especially when i'm standing right beside Mr R ( cuz he wear nice nice to jp all the time. people of his clique are like this. =____= ) But seriously,who cares about image when we're out at neighbourhood area? hahaha!!

Channel U is air-ing a Taiwan show ( which was on air at Taiwan long long ago! ) now. The female lead sort of resemble ah visss leh! hehe~ I think i mentioned this to her long long ago..but she said i'm bullshitting. zzz~ Whatever it is, visss, you really resemble her abit leh! :P

I'm out of here babey! ;D

Oh dear, i'm trying hard to do my part for my project , but it seemed to fail miserably to the max. =( How how how? Super depressing lor. =( Maybe i've no common sense uh? =(

Super depressing. =( Girlies, we can hug together and cry le. =( I'm out of here...

Too many thoughts are running through my mind babey, and i need someone to talk to/ for me to whine ( again! ) :( My "crabby" cousin is off for reservist, Mr R is forever sleeping (haha!), viss is quite busy preparing for her presentation and another 2 besties are busy with work too. *Big sighs!!* Oh dear, i shouldnt sigh too much,if not i'll get real old easily. =/ And the best way? Pen everything down in my diary.At least i'll slightly better babey. :)


Had lunch with xuexun and khaimun today. I've my ways to convince them to eat with me. =P Sorry guys,for making you all walk all the way to Koufu.I would pick South Canteen if i know you guys are walking from blk __ ( er..forgot which blk already,which is nearer to south canteen) Thanks for accompanying me! hehe!



Internet is really distracting,cuz i cant concentrate on my work if there is internet access. =/ That's why i dont online when i'm doing my work. I'm just damn bad at multitasking. =/



PS : Babes, good luck for your presentation this week! :D

My heart is still beating for you.

Words couldnt describe how excited i'm when i saw him online at FB. Really. I've added him close to a month, and this is the first time i saw him online okayyy. Now the million dollar question, how to kickstart the conver to him? Like " hey _____! how have you been? It has been ages since i saw u" ? Geez...sounds super retarded hor? =/ I dont have any problem talking to him in the past, but now, i'm super ball-less to do so . =( So..the consequences of hesitating is...he offline already! How great can this be? =(


That's aside....

Popped by Mr R's house after lesson. As usual, i always do things which i usually dont do ( most of the time ) when i'm having a bad day. Ya right, it's f-ing shitty to drink again after so long! The f-ing giddy-ness is making me see "stars". =___= (ok..i've no stamina to drink,unlike him. ) Thank god,it lasted for a short while only. So yea.. he has seen another unglam side of me again. =/ Thanks dude,for listening to my never-ending nonsense/whines. =)

What makes you think i'm not sad at all?

I'm just putting a brave front. =(

Was blog-hopping and saw one of my clementi town primary schoolmate in typicalben's blog! It's Goshi Saito in the house yo! =D Still remembered vividly that the girls were going gaga over him lor. He is super cute, always get first in sports day, is a japanese, no airs at all, studies very good etc. Seee.....so many good points eh! But er....his current looks resemble Harry Potter leh ( maybe i watched too many H.P already ) with the messy thick hair and glasses. haha! But still...i think he still looks cute. =D






I think i feel better now, cuz just now i was erupting like a volcano. =___= F that damn moodswing.

10 sec of entertainment for me. He never fails to remind me that i'll be turning 20 in 9 more days. =__= Nice one.




Harry Potter over the weekends babey! =D

Had a good catching up with the Queen-Apple. I havent been contacting her for around 6 months plus lor. And the next thing the queen told me she is married already. ( she is 24 btw ) Dope cool right!



What she mentioned is true. "Loving a person doesnt means that i've to own him,just let him fly to where he wanna be" And the Queen's way? Get over him immediately and go into a new relationship the next day. Ya' right,that's the Queen. haha!



And 1 thing in common between us is...we're super vain! But Queen is the most "hiao" one. I still remembered the days when i worked with her at Causeway Point. She is super hopeless, cuz she will keep looking into the mirror every 5 seconds hor! I at most is every 5 mins lor. hehe! Admit it Queen! =P And how could i forget the fact that she is a potential hardcore clubber? And her crazy dancing vids? She claims that she is going to step down and retire from the clubbing shits. Who on earth will believe? lol!



Feel so bloated after the humongous amount of food entered my stomach earlier on. ( think lots of chicken and chicken and fishes. ) I foresee myself putting on the weight that i've lost. zzz~

I was not feeling well for the past 2 week . A small little bun + 2 half-boiled eggs+ 2 toast+ half cup of "teh" for my breakfast could made me feel full bloated for the entire day.Really no appetite to eat lor.I think i'm too "heaty" already. =( Good thing is my tummy is flatter now. But my silly dar beg to differ. She said that i'm still very fat. Whatever~ ( her signature pet phrase. haha! )


"skinny" dar loves this picture,cuz "fatty" me could barely be seen in this picture. Duh..i think i still look chio even though 1/2 of my face is missing.hahaha! (ok,i was joking about the "chio" part. self praise=no praise.haha! ) Check out that ugly bird face she gave when i demanded a sexy seductive look from her. =P


Have been quite busy these day. All thanks to the never-ending project assignment. zzz~ To the extent i think i have no life at all. Really. Whenever Mr R talked to me, my replies will be " tied down with assignments/projects". Just like his replies are forever " oh..i just woke up/ i only slept in the morning/going clubbing later" etc .. haha! How bad can this get. =(

Then had 3 hours of msn marathon with Xuexun. And this friend of mine is always making me angry all the time! Say my bff gf = make me angry. Say me = super make me angry. No wonder i'm having breakouts when i woke up this morning. ( er..partly, "day of the month" is coming soon la. ) During OOAD lesson,received his text again which agitated me like mad ( but it lasted for like 3 sec only.lol! ) He never failed to make me laugh and get mad at him at the same time. haha!

I need to hit the sack right now.Super sleepy....zzz~ Nights peeps! =D

I feel so f-ing disguested by someone's behaviour earlier on. When she is in need of something/need my help, she would speak in her sexy-virgin voice. Geez,why am i such a "softie",i shouldn't have agree to help her in the first place. Let's see what sort of pattern she will give this time round...

did i just wake up?

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Geez..i'm officially sick.Down with flu+sore throat. Great combo isnt it? I think i'll visit the doctor later in the evening. I'm always visiting the doctor like almost every month. =__=




Ok,go ahead and laugh at my unglam noob face. i know i look like i just woke up,but i'm not! zzz~ ( my dar looked so unglam here too!hehe! )


Home-based learning is really shitty,cuz i couldn't sit still for 1 minute. ( why is it that i could sit still in school then?hmm..) Plus we're doing our work at our comfort zone. =__= When i'm in my room,i see bed. Bed = sleeping time~ If i'm in the living room,i see tv. Tv = TV time~ I ended up lying on my bed and do my work ( which only lasted for ~30 mins only ) Then the remaining time i was msn-ing with friends/walk around the house/entertain my dar etc. Told ya' i cant sit still already. oops!


Intended to have lunch with Mr R,but i was feeling "nua" to get out of the house. Plus a friend of his is tagging along. So er..it'll be awkward,cuz i'm a very shy person o! =P I'm out of here. =)

What a nice weather for me to sleep in. But dar is forever being a spoiler,cuz she never fails to scream and shout the moment she reached my house.zzzz~ Imagine i've being screaming at her while i'm 半睡半醒? =__= We'll turn into "monsters" when people disturb our sleep. quoted from Mr R. Haha! Super true!


Now it's weekends again! =D Just woke up from my 16 hours of sleep. My head is super "heavy" and is still in sleepy mode. I guess i can KO anytime lor. Just read the school mail,and boy,the amount of workload can kill~ Mr R even asked me to close down the window,then i wont be able to see already. I guess no matter how many times i've closed,the amount of work is still pinned up there lor. =(



So let me just enjoy my last 2 days of holiday before i'm back to "school" again. In the meantime,i shall continue my sleeping marathon again. (although i just woke up 2 hours ago.) hurhurhur~ "nightssss" !! =D

It do bring back alot of memories when i saw his cheeky cute face once again at FB...

Those were the days when he...


- confessed to me right infront of the class ( very touching~ )
- was playing soccer with his clique at my neighbourhood,and i will be sitting there watching/waiting him.
- sang to me everyday,knowing that i love his singing. =D ( he sings very very very well! =D )
- flashes his signature cheeky smile/look to brighten up my day

- make funny sentence structures with his "cannot-make-it-at-all" chinese.
- his 甜言蜜语 that would practically melt my heart ( or rather every girls' heart.tsk~ )


If only we could rewind back the time and stop there for good....


That's aside..



Brought dar laetitia and dar louanne out to Jurong Point today, together with my mom of course. Went to our all-time heavenly shops ( think make-up etc ) and got stucked there for a long long time.Dar had a good time exploring all the various colours for nail polish/make-up at SASA. The craze started out when i (vain jiejie) did a french manicure for lil' vain dar few days back.hehe~


My fair lil' princesses~ ♥ ♥ No pictures of jiejie,cuz i look super unglam ( think messy bunned up hair,t-shirt and shorts ) =___=



i'm out of here and heading back to tv-ing~ so you guys know why i seldom online eversince the holiday kickstart. zzz~


PS : visss,stop your 桃花 nonsense already~ heeees~

I'm in such a shopping mood babey ~ ( cuz term break is here! )


Bought this Balenciaga-Inspired jacket online few days back. I'm not sure if i could carry out the style well though.At times like this,i've to constantly remind myself not to,especially when i'm not working that often anymore. Bah..in fact i spent more than i earned. =/ Looks like my saving plans failed miserably again..


Balenciaga-Inspired jacket


F21 casual spag and necklance. hearts the tie-back ribbon at the back.it's spells cute~

On a side note,

It seriously sucks to see girls tagging his FB. ok,i admit i'm jealous okayy. =( I should just slap myself real hard and return back to reality. zzzzzzz~ perhaps it will take me 1 zillion years to totally get over him. =( At times like this, bumping into him is a good and bad sign. Good - able to see him face to face again. Bad - all the feelings will be back. Geez,why am i such a weakling??=( Cant be blamed, devoted people like us are like this. Just like he is still waiting for someone,and i'm waiting for him. Ya right,complicated shit. It seems to me that i'm always associated with Pisces and Libra guys.It'll be sweet initially, yet at the same time, it always ended up being complicated and shitty. =( Once again,i'm totally ball-less to talk to him even though he is online in FB now. He is approachable,but i just find it difficult to talk to him. sighs~


i'm out of here,saying any further makes me heartache only. On a light note,my jacket has arrived in the mail! =D lovelovess~

I feel so weak from head to toe today. Partly because i had 3 hours of sleep only. I just feel like a walking panda alrights. :( In the midst of the practical test, i see "stars" suddenly. :( I cant imagine 我做 practical test 做到晕倒. lols~


Just completed my 4 hours marathon chats with Xuexun.He never fails to make me laugh and get mad at him at the same time. Alrights,i need my beauty sleep. Was suppose to hit the bed at 11pm, but overshot it by mass msn-ing with friends. I've wasted 2 hours of my sleep le. As quoted by him.



Alrights nightssss loveliesssss! xoxo~

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Bumped into him at jurong point earlier on.He is still looking good as before,but getting skinner. =( Gosh,i was just randomly talking about him few days back to visss, and today i bumped into him. =D As usual,my tongue was so tied up,i cant utter much when he spoke to me with his sexy manly voice.Whyyyyyyyyy? =( Called up my visss girly and shared my happiness with her earlier on.heee! Such things are worth sharing right? That silly girl was mentioning that my 桃花运 is here already,cuz recently quite a number of secondary mates are contacting me back like after eons. Forever bullshitting one.


Oh babey, i should just slap myself hard and wake up my idea. =( visss girly is so right, he is not the only man on earth. 本小姐还怕没人要 meh? lol~


i'm officially facebook-dicted leh! i'm off to facebook,cuz someone has online 了哦！=P visss was saying i'm totally hopeless. i'm not !!!! -.-

Chanced upon his facebook via friend. In fact,i was very excited and elated when i saw his profile ,however part of me was hesitating to click his profile. =( Ya' right,i'm totally "ball-less" to do so. =( Imagine your loved one went mia and changed all source of contacts (msn,hp etc) without updating you.How will you feel? Eventually when i asked his clique,but none of them know his "下落" back then. You couldn't imagine how painful it was for me to go through these shits years back. 真的是很痛苦啊! =( I'm such a pussy when it comes to handling such situations.
I could easily request Mr R to help me now,but this isn't fair to him at all. Sigh.. Perhaps i should just message him in FB or something,if he denied knowing my existence,i should just bloody wake up my idea and slapped myself real hard to return back to reality. =(


I need a breathing space babey...

Met up with the usuals after so long~ Misss yennie and Lily many many! ♥ Had a good time catching up/gossiping with one another over dinner. Not to forget the cutie new mommy,keen, she is entertaining me with her classic expressions luh! 她真的很厉害模仿人啦！Gosh,i was laughing like mad throughout. Imagine the whole of Metro is filled with my laughters only. -.-Then bumped into Mr R while i was on the way home earlier on. He is effing sickening to the max luh. He purposely stood behind me ( while i was at the traffic junction ) and poked my waist. Kao...人吓人会吓死人的咯! I thought which sicko dare to poke 本小姐，简直没死过。哈哈!

And Xuexun is up to his mischief again. He is always making me mad by saying i lose it out to visss cuz i'm older. Geeez ! 老一点就不是人啊？*pout* Both of us are equally pretty okayy? =P Before he goes to bed,he still say i'm chio-er by 1/2 . *grins and hops around!* Seeee...难得 he compliment me leh! ^^

Anyway...practical test was damn sucky .In short,i'm gonna flunk. I know i'm being whiny,that's me. =(

Read online news saying that Chelsea has won the match. I'm not a soccer match fanatic to begin with, just because of someone, i began to like whatever he likes many years back . Whatever it is, his all-time-soccer-player, Frank Lampard has scored a goal for the match. Ahh, dont bombard me if the information is wrong. I'm not a soccer fanantic to begin with,that was what i read in the news. =)



Next...AE's upcoming collection looks impressive. Bah..it means more spendings again! When will i become more "niao" huh?


the original piece worn by Paris Hilton is much nicer! If only they could manufacture the exact same piece, it would be great!


Nevertheless, the replicated dress is simple and nice too. I'm getting it for sure. Let's play the "fastest fingers game" tonight,cuz i wouldn't want to be at the backorder list again! It's losing the excitement when i've to wait for a long long time for it to reach me in the mail. zzz!


On a light note, i'm officially a facebook addict for now. thanks alot to friends/classmates who have "enlighten" me on the usage of it. i'm really a noob at such things. =/ I just got to know that i could chat like i'm chatting in msn too. Bah..really a noob. -.- so..do add me in facebook babey! =D


I guess i wont be updating as much as in the past. Maybe like once in a blue moon? Or maybe not. i'm outta here...xoxo~

Come up with something new pls? It do get bored to hear the same old things over and over again. *yawns!*






i'm out of this space for good.


Thanks Mr R,you're still the nicest! =) thanks for brightening up my day! =D you're such a potential joker luh!

My only source of comfort during bad days. ♥ ♥



Yup, i still have the habit of jotting my thoughts in a diary. The feeling is totally different as compared to typing it out in blogger. (perhaps it's only me that feels this way ) These diaries have been with me since my primary school days though. i just couldn't stop laughing at my "twit angmo" that i once had, plus those sweet little memories during secondary school days.Awww! misssss it! =( Anyway, i'm sourcing for a new diary,cuz my current one is finishing soon. In fact, i'm still sourcing for a unique and simple one,but it's quite difficult to find something that caught my eyes. hmm..


Anyway, not feeling that good today,cuz it's the "day of the month" again. Bah..it's making me feeling so weak from head to toe. Effing irritating. =( Alrights,i'm turning in for the night. Nightsss! =)


PS : girly, dont feel sad over that fucked up shit alrights. We girlies still can live on with our life without those nasty shits. =) I want back your crazy self please! Entertained me with your classic bimbotic acts.Cheeeeeer up, girly! =) Audre baby and i will always be there for you ! Anything can just give me a ring alrights..i will zooooom all the way to blk S and find you. =P

Have i really changed alot? If there is any change, i would say weight gain is my only change. Very often, people would comment i've become prettier etc. In fact i'm not,cuz i'm nothing without those eyeliner and mascara.It's the wonder of make-up babey. Thanks god,someone invented this thing called "make-up", or else i'll look very crap. really.

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I used to hear some weird aunties at workplace commenting that we should accept what god has given to us ( as in appearance ), and shouldn't do anything to our face to "alter" our appearance. Wtf? Vain girls like me put make-up to satisfy ourself, it's not as though we are going under knives to change our appearance lor. Aiyoooo~

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That's aside.....

To kickstart, let's meet "DORA"~~


yea,i'm super fat since young. Girls during my times will have this cute little "DORA" hair.

Fastforward abit, 10 years later~

At age 15 ,

Go ahead and laugh at my noob birdy hair. I just couldnt imagine myself in short hair again! It'll be a nightmare! really. On a light note, i do miss my choir malay friends. =( They are nice people.

At 17 ,

ya la...still acting cute at this age.Bah, i know it's very twit of me to have the infamous peace sign.Became more "hiao" (vain), and that was when i started out my first Beauty Advisor job too!

At 18,

We have cute little round nose. haha! *bah,yet another unglam bare face*

And now! ( though picture is not recent one )

Behold! Unglam bare face ahead!

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ya-da! undrawn brows+dark circles+eyebags+shag = unglam me! On a light note,this is my piggy! Alot of my neighbours said that we have splitting resemblance! Maybe it's the eyes? or the flat round nose we have? hmm..

So in all, i'm not pretty/photogenic at all. I'm just a "blah" girl without those make-up.With make-up,maybe might have the tiny weeny "FWAH" factor la. ( ok la, i'm just being thick-skin by complimenting myself ) haha! It really makes me wonder what's so great about me without make-up? Mr R's eyes confirm got "stamp".

That's all for now,enjoy the 30 sec of entertainment of this entry. lol! I hope i didnt scare anyone off with my noob bare face. =/